I miss school already. Right now I'm at home with no purpose and pretty much nothing to do besides hang around with Momma, but we're both in such godawful moods (misery loves company, of course) that we don't feel like doing anything. We've been baking cookies and doing our shopping for Christmas, though neither one of us are getting any real joy out of it. I guess I have one excuse for not really being in the spirit since my paternal grandmother died a couple months ago, though I don't think that's quite it. I do admit that I'm lonely, though, not hanging around with Karl (even though I don't want to be with him every day -- making me shit SO potential, but luckily that's not what I am or what I see him as).
The past few days I've been in such a rotten mood. I've got a short fuse with 95% of people and can hardly stand being around people, especially strangers. I feel like hibernating for hours per day, and I actually do go up to my room for a nap (but mainly quiet time) daily. I just don't get it. Maybe I need the stress of being up to my ears drowning in schoolwork to keep me happy.